[First Poem Written on the Life Writing Course]

NOBODY

 

I am Nobody because i do not have a voice

I’m expected to do whatever, without given a choice

Nobody, because I’ve always been the lesser one

If anything goes wrong, it’s cos of something I’ve done

 

Nobody, because I’m disrespected by all

Invisible, despite being there for anyone when they call

Nobody whenever I’m belittled, sworn or shouted at

Everyone takes me for granted and treats me like a doormat

 

Nobody, because nothing i do is appreciated or seen

Even though i spend hours ensuring the house is clean

Nobody when outsiders get to have the final say

Especially when I’m victimized, they look or walk away

 

I am Nobody when being ostracized by those i love dearly

The animosity radiated towards me is felt by me clearly

Nobody because when finally i stand up for what’s right

Their response still has me crying,  deep into the night

 

Nobody because i try so hard just to make them care

But i guess it doesn’t matter, they just pretend I’m not there

I am Nobody because everything i do or say is wrong

Yeah! I must be a Nobody for this to go on for so long

 

But hey! this Nobody has finally reached the end of her rope

Because this Nobody is tired, and has given up all hope

Therefore, after spending a lifetime as a NOBODY to some

The day when I’ll finally be SOMEONE will come

No matter if what they reminisce about me is all lies

This Nobody will be acknowledged on the day she dies.

 

[Last Poem Written on the Life Writing Course]

THANK YOU

 

Watching the wave, as it crashes gently onto the shore

It’s something i never really noticed before

I am so thankful and grateful, that i can finally see

The beauty in everything, that is surrounding me

 

How is it possible, i never saw any of this before

It seems as if i walked through a magical door

For the past few days i have been in a place

Where only warmth and peace invaded my space

 

Sitting amongst people who i never met before

A rich diversity of personalities and yet so much more

On my very first day, i was so timid and weak

Scared half to death, lest they ask me to speak

 

But as the days passed, my confidence has grown

And it’s all due to the compassion this amazing group has shown

Each one of us has a reason for being here

Although mine at first, wasn’t very clear

 

I have learnt so much, but most important… I had fun

I am not looking forward to the day we are done

So thank you for this opportunity, and each and everyone

For making this week so special, one of the best … bar none!

 

 

©Leonora Lewis

Dedicated to the Life Righting Collective

July 2018

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About Leonora Lewis

My name is Leonora Lewis. I have always written my thoughts on paper, yet it never occurred to me it was poetry until i was challenged to write a poem by my online friend 3 years ago. The first poem was about our friendship. When she encouraged me to write about my daily struggles in life, i wrote "I wish i were dead" which was chosen for publishing as the editors' choice for the June 2017 edition in the American Poetry Journals. That poem has since been chosen for numerous journals in US and the UK. My 2nd poem called "Punishment" was published this year in the same journal and has also done well.